clrmehppygrl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Happiness Abounds In just the past few months, my life has taken such a drastic turn. So much has changed, so much has become clearer. The woman I was such a short time ago doesn't even look familiar anymore. I've been looking back in pictures and not recognizing her at all. It's not only that my body looks different, my weight has changed, shifted, etc. But the look on my face, the look in my eyes... everything has changed. I feel like I'm becoming a full woman. I feel like everything in my life is finally on a track that is positive. And even the things that are hard, or rought to get through, aren't as bad as I would normally make them out to be. There is a stillness inside of me that has been absent for years now. There is a quiet enjoyment of my loved ones that has been missing for years. Last night I layed in bed with my husband and my son. It was the little one's bedtime and we were playing. Just the sound of laughter was intoxicating. And knowing that I'm moving somewhere that I can raise my son in a fashion of my own making, that is amazing. And knowing that he's going to be surrounded by people that truly love one another and hold each other in the highest regards... that is wonderful. Althought I'm stressed and confused and hurting over things... even though life isn't exactly the way I would idealize it right now... it's as perfect as it could possibly be right at this moment. Yes, I finally feel happy. Finally. 1:36 pm - 2005-08-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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