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Heartbreak Mommy

Oh my. Not only have I an interview TOMORROW instead of next week for this job. Not only that, which I'm nervous as hell about, but I finally told my mom. Finally dropped the bomb on her this morning.

It's killing me to hurt her like this. It's killing me to see her cry. I wanted to tell her in person. I wanted to tell her AFTER she got off of work, but the situation didn't permit what I wanted for her. Last night I came home early with a migrane, so talking really wasn't an option. And I'm leaving today for the interview, so I had to tell her today.

Breaking my mother's heart was never something I wanted. But it's a neccessary evil at this point. I want to move. I want out of here and I want to start my own life with my own family. I want to have another baby, and I can't do that here.

I leave today to drive over to Jupiter and her hubby's place. I'm tired and I really don't want to drive, but I'd rather do an interview in person than on the phone. I think it makes a better impression. I'm excited and scared and just overall nervous. But I think things will be fine. At least I hope so.

Wish me luck!

7:49 am - 2005-08-17

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