clrmehppygrl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Quiet Time I know I've been quiet lately. There has been so much going on in this life of mine that it's been hard to sort things through long enough to make a linear thought. But things are starting to settle again, it seems, so it's easier to talk. Jupiter and I, last weekend, had this huge misunderstanding. Lead to lots of fighting, some cussing, and a lot of hurt on both sides of the aisle. Our first real "fight" since we've gotten back together and it was crazy-painful. I didn't know what to come here with about it. I didn't want to post any gory details, because she does read this, and it's kind of a private thing. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt her even more than I have. Luckily, we've worked through most of it. That alone has done wonders on my side for the hurt, and the fear. And now I just need to make sure she's alright, and help her to heal. One week from today, we're driving back up to see her and her husband, and I am so thrilled. I have been trying not to think about it, just so that I can get through my days without distraction. Because when I let myself think about how excited I am to be going over there again. Going to see my new family in the making, my new hometown, my new life. It's very hard to get much done with all the daydreaming. I'm happy. Truly, completely, happy. It's so foriegn to me, that I look for the other shoe to drop a lot. But slowly, the shoe is fading from existance and I'm giving up on the thud. 11:34 am - 2005-08-05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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