clrmehppygrl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Overcoming the Fear It's slowly starting to sink in that we really are going to move this time. We have really put ourselves in a decent place, financially, so that we can, without any trouble, pay the deposits needed for an apartment, and get a moving truck, and get our butts across the state without going broke. Yes, I'm scared out of my gourd when it comes to this. It's such a huge huge huge step in my life. It's one I really want, I really need, to take, but it's still daunting to me. The fear won't stop me though, it is only a hurdle I need to get over, and if I have to knock it down instead of jumping over it to get where I need to go, I will. The hardest part for me will be telling my parents that I'm leaving... that I'm taking their golden child, my son, away from them. That will break their hearts more than just me leaving. But it's something that needs to be done. I am not happy with how he's being raised and the looks I get when I discipline him. He deserves a better life. This time next year, we'll be somewhere new with people that really do love and support us. It's not going to be easy all the time, but it'll be easier than here. The fear won't stop me. Ever. 8:17 am - 2005-07-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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