clrmehppygrl's Diaryland Diary

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Numbing

I find that I'm becoming much more numb to the world around me lately. Even with the whole dad thing yesterday, I didn't even cry. I always cry.

The only people that I'm still open to are my husband and my son. Other than that, I don't feel it anymore. I don't feel the love, anger, hate, or anything from anyone anymore. I just don't have the energy.

I usually lose it when I watch ER, watching people's loved ones dying off daily. Even though I know it's not real, and the corpses are actors, the emotion is still very much a reality. But even that is emotionless for me.

Coping mechanism, maybe. Disfuntion, probably. But what can be done?

10:38 am - 2005-05-31

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