clrmehppygrl's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Heavy Sack of Flour - Sifted and Lifted Today was another day full of cleaning the house getting it spotless for my son's party in two days. I had no idea how satisfying a full day's cleaning house really feels. When I usually do it, it's on Saturday's with my mom. And she's so spastic that I can't relax and really just go at my own pace. Today it was just my husband and me, cleaning. And although we didn't start until 10:30 and we sat down and we talked and we just had an overall easy breezy time, we got a lot done. We did some real deep cleaning and it felt really good. And right now, I'm sitting in the play room, on the computer, listening to my son in the bathtub to my left. He's playing some crazy game of pretend with all of his bath toys, cars and rubber ducks (he has 3). I'm looking out the back sliding glass door onto our newly scrubbed back porch and across our newly vacuumed swimming pool. No longer the science experiment so much as a pond on its way to pool. The sky is preparing itself for sunset and I'm the first one in the theatre for the display. I hope it's beautiful. I've always loved the fact that the side of the house most optimized with windows was the one that faced the west. Our sunsets are stunning. I haven't felt this degree of calm in ages. I'm so relaxed right now that I'm darn near sleepy. I'm not angry, or anxious. Even now that my parents are home and my grandmother is in town, I'm not scared. I'm not fidgeting or trying to look busy at all times. I'm just here. Doing what I do. Being. Period. The sky is starting to turn a faint shade of peachy orange. It's like the orchestra warming up for an opera. It's going to be amazing, I can feel it. I know that there are those of you out there that are not calm right now. I know that some of you are in pain, still others heavy with thoughts and with love. I wish I could wrap you all in my arms and give you a hug so warm and comforting that the world falls away for that split second. Thank you all for sticking through all of the drama in my life lately. Self-made it may be, but drama nonetheless. Your words mean more to me than you can imagine. Thank you so many times over. 7:25 pm - 2005-05-19 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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